I tried to explain to him i was not in a good place emotionally or physically and moving into his parents house would be too much for me. i couldn’t just drop everything and fulfill his fantasy of being in a relationship with me and starting a life together, also he had told me he had some problems with one of his other family members, which made me feel even more unsafe about moving in with him. those pastamonster voice overs? yeah he asked me if he could do them i said yes and we didn’t speak again for another few months.Īt the time i had just gotten a job my emotionally abusive friend had just cut me off, i was heavily into a drug addiction (which i have since recovered from) and i was getting my life situated. i on the other hand didn’t feel the same i had maybe talked to him once or twice before we started dating but he made it quite clear he was obsessed with me. He was very sweet at first, he told me he loved me told me there was no one he would want to be with, telling me he never wanted to date one of his artists friends which he so obviously led on to believe he loved before i came into the picture he was convinced i was the one for him. He tried to manipulate me into moving into his parents house with him after a few days of dating by that point i knew there was a problem. but then had the audacity to tell me getting on birth control would be a good idea. he then preceded to hesitate and grumble to himself, when i asked him what was wrong he told me he doesn’t like to wear condoms because “they always break” and he tried to reason with me by saying he was good at the pull out method and that he used it all the time with his previous girlfriends. I told him straight forward i was not on birth control and i would prefer him to wear a condom if we were going to have sex. and of course i didn’t HAVE to have sex with him but even then, the thought of being alone with him in a hotel room made me feel unsafe. i of course agreed with him and thought i was to blame. he let out a sigh and told me if i do that he will get “a little irritated” if he had to stop, he then tried to turn it around and make it my fault by saying if i wasn’t absolutely sure i wouldn’t had taken my clothes off and let him jack off to me on skype and that i was leading him on. I told him i might ask him to stop if i felt uncomfortable or it hurt. We were planning on meeting up at a con for a few days he totally jumped on the idea of getting a hotel room for the weekend and having sex with me i however i was terrified at the idea of sex for personal reasons. (trigger: sexual abuse/emotional abuse/i get a little TMI) I’ve kept all of this information to myself over the past year because i honestly wanted to believe he had changed, i honestly just wanted to burn the bridge and never speak to him again because i knew if i did speak up i would just be labeled “the crazy ex girlfriend” but yesterday after the way he treated my friend and some other information was made aware of last night with the help of some friends, I don’t even give a shit anymore im sick of being silent (although i am a little scared seeing how aggressive and awful his fans can be to people who call him out on his shitty behavior) keep in mind he had said these things over video chat on skype but i assure you im not making any of this up. Well I normally hate talking badly about people but in Steve’s case I feel like i should warn people about manipulative and abusive he is.
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